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[13 Nov 2009|09:34am] |
how can you not wanna live in paris with this view pretty much outside your window?!?!
or day visits to versailles (cuz believe me you are gonna have to stretch out over a few days with how huge that palace is)
i'll never get enough of paris. this is the 2nd time ive been and i still find something magical everyday i walk around.
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[12 Nov 2009|12:51pm] |
i think this is the part where i get so absorbed with the relationship that i neglect my friends and dont speak to them for months.
nice knowing ya'll
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[12 Nov 2009|08:06am] |
super bummed im home from europe.
i still haven't told my boyfriend im home and ive been hanging out with mitchell lately. how sketchy is that. im a shitbag.
and my shit is all fucked up eff you jetlag
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[09 Aug 2009|01:52am] |
so so so happy mitchell is back!
had a very eventful day
stuck in traffic forever!
kinda sorta met the jonas brothers haha!
almost hit their escalade as well
dinner with mitchell! he even PAID for once hahahaha and gave me roses
drank some booze and moshed to letlive and wished jason harkless a happy birthday
things are looking up
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[03 Aug 2009|02:01am] |
ive been so frustrated with everything lately. pretty much everything that could go wrong within a week did. pretty much every night i drive by myself around till about 5am and half the time i almost keep going either toward arizona or north...im suprised i havent yet and getting about 2 hrs of sleep real cool
i got a letter in the mail that FCI hasnt recieved any sort of deposit or tuition from my tribal scholarship program and they are giving me until this fucking friday AUG 7th to show any financial responsibilty. really now? i fucking hope these bastards cough up the 39k because they have had more than enough time to send pay and what the hell if there was a problem why didn't they mail/email/phone me of the problem? if i get screwed over im going to fucking burn that place down not even joking.
i miss mitchell more than ever. i really really do, i want him home ive been on the phone with him for at least 3 hrs a day this past week and a half. pretty much the only reason why i havent thrown myself off a building. awesome
now survey cuz i cant fucking sleep and my 8 hr shift starts at 6am
( bullshit )
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| long time |
[16 Jun 2009|11:35am] |
-moving to new york in january FINALLY!
-french culinary school in SoHo
-euro trip 10/26-11/09 oui oui
-still working at sycuan...kinda hate it sorta love it at the same time
salud!
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[06 Dec 2008|02:06pm] |
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i lost my best friend.
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[29 Nov 2008|02:20am] |
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[Chorus]
In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless..
How could you be so heartless?
Oh.. How could you be so heartless?
[Verse 1]
How could you be so, cold as the winter wind when it breeze, yo
Just remember that you talkin' to me though
You know need to watch the way you talkin' to me, yo
I mean after all the things that we've been through
I mean after all the things we got into
Hey yo, I know of some things that you ain't told me
Hey yo, I did some things but that's the old me
And now you wanna get me back and you gon' show me
So you walk around like you don't know me
You got a new friend, well I got homies
But in the end it's still so lonely
[Chorus]
In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless..
How could you be so heartless?
Oh.. How could you be so heartless?
[Verse 2]
How could be so Dr. Evil, you bringin' out a side of me that I dont know..
I decided we weren't gon' speak so
Why we up 3 A.M. on the phone
Why does she be so mad at me fo'
Homie I dont know, she's hot and cold
I won't stop, I won't mess my groove up
'Cause I already know how this thing go
You run and tell your friends that you're leaving me
They say that they don't see what you see in me
You wait a couple months then you gon' see
You'll never find nobody better than me
[Chorus]
In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless..
How could you be so heartless?
Oh.. How could you be so heartless?
[Verse 3]
Talkin', talkin', talkin', talk
Baby let's just knock it off
They don't know what we been through
They don't know 'bout me and you
So I got something new to see
And you just gon' keep hatin' me
And we just gon' be enemies
I know you can't believe
I could just leave it wrong
And you can't make it right
I'm gon' take off tonight
Into the night...
[Chorus]
In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless..
How could you be so heartless?
Oh.. How could you be so heartless?
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[28 Nov 2008|12:41am] |
"i wish i knew how to quit you"
hahhahaa life story
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[25 Oct 2008|01:09am] |
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i dont belong here, ive pretty much lost every connection with everyone
whatever i have no problem starting over.
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[14 Oct 2008|04:43am] |
#
so i realized
sitting here in my room having a wonderful cigarette. how much ive been smoking lately since starting my new job.
first of all, i barely smoked 1/4 of a pack every few days or so, since sycuan ive been smoking 3/4 to a full pack a day. working in a casino and having everyone else i work with smoke constantly i cant get away from it. always eagerly anticipating the next break for a smoke, trying to smoke two in 15 minutes, saying things like “fuck i need a cigarette right now” along with my cowokers. its something we all look forward to through out our shifts. some times we sneak away for 5 mins to at least get a couple of puffs before putting it out and running back to our area before our supervisors catch us.
work smoke break work smoke our half hour lunch away work smoke go home smoke on the way home. sleep
i can feel my lungs dying.
i need to quit.
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[24 Aug 2008|01:39am] |
I often think back to that night... the moment when I found out that our love was a lie.
Felt like I would die, I couldn't stand the pain.
And there's nothing left except one thing, I've gotta see you again.
And I said..I love you forever, 'til death do us part.
Oh oh forever is over, Oh oh forever is over.
it's over, it's over, it ended on that night...
that I took your fucking life.
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[28 Jul 2008|12:24am] |
baked potatos and video ichat with charlie are usually what i do with my evenings. its kinda dope, the baked potatos i mean....
i keep bringing up the idea of culinary school, since i have no idea what i want to do for a career, 22 years old and nothing to show cept 3 years of clothing manfacturing experience...i could do something with that
or nursing, but thats the easy way out even tho i like wearing scrubs
well the next couple of months should be really exciting, san francisco in the arms of my wonderful lush, rock the bells in mountain view maybe if yak & sss are gonna be there, motorhead with my papa in september and im slowly getting over my hate for the state of texas and making a halloween trip to Austin...we'll see how that one goes.
im going as santogold this year..lush will be M.I.A.
i got my leather membersonly jacket all ready
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[26 Jun 2008|10:52pm] |
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cant wait to see charlie tomorrow :)
brad has restored my faith in a true friendship. i dunno what i'd do without that kid.
slice wrecked his car, dont get a yaris.....he was going less than 25mph and tboned a kia sportage, flipped it on its side and wrecked his front.
no more his and her's yaris's
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[25 Jun 2008|10:28pm] |
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i never really expected this.
but shit its even coming from my best friends. COOL DUDES
i know not having a car or anything really fucks things up but lately ive been losing touch with a lot of people.
ive been tryin to make plans but lately mostly everyone has been a huuuuge flake.
its weird going from driving everyone around to nothing...haha doesnt equal out
vegas this weekend. i get to see charlie :D
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[24 Jun 2008|12:13am] |
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eastcoast09
new friends
new start
and to tell you the truth im not sad im leaving everything and everyone behind.
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[17 Jun 2008|02:10am] |
Estimated Distance: 2819.34 miles
Estimated Time: 43.0 hours 40 minutes
hmmm. i always wanted to do a cross country roadtrip
anyone care to join? you'd probably have to fly back since im planning to stay...
three airport choices.
laguardia
JFK
or newark hahah
lets make this happen!
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[12 Jun 2008|02:22pm] |
hello east coast january 6th 2009.
:)
made my final decision, its for the best.
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[02 Jun 2008|11:11pm] |
i cant wait till this is all over
i cant wait to go back
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NYC was AMAZING.
i loved every minute of it.
with all ive been dealing with lately this trip was much needed.
i came back with a strong head on my shoulders
and i am ready to do what needs to be done.
this next 6months i wont be around much, dealing with the consequences of my actions.
i will overcome this, i will leave this knowing i wont make the same mistake again
in 3 years New York City i will call you home
i WILL make there
its the city that will chew you up, spit you out turn around and welcome you back with open arms
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